I will probably hide this blog and stopp blogging. You see, something really awful has happened and I’m devastated and I don’t think I’ll ever be even half the person I used to be. I’ve lost my will to live. I will still check in from time to time and read some of your blog posts (the ones I can bear to read, that don’t remind me too much of what I can’t bear to think about) and like etc. But I can’t keep posting here myself. I don’t know how long I will be feeling this way. The way it feels right now, it’s probably forever.